my friend just had a Spaz attack on me, in her Xanga. bascully saying that she lies to EVERYONE.. and so she's been lying to me for 13 years of our friendship. and she said that she's sick of hearing about the updates i give her on my grandma, or anything.. even when i have to Rant to her.. i guess her n i have wasted 13 years of our lives on each other.

i'm so sick of this stuff here! i have NO ONE here in Minnesota to just be here for me when i need them too.. i'm all alone here.. i spend all my time in my bedroom. and not even my parnets come in to talk to me or anything.. they just CALL me on my cell phone to come get dinner, or to take a shower, or just if they need something. i'm the one that if i wanna tlak to someone i go out there to talk to them.. or i just dont even talk to them.. sometimes im scared to talk to them, because well everytime my dad and I talked, we end up fighting. or when i tlak to my mom. she barley talks back to me. just nods or soemthing.. and my brother is never home now that he's 21. and now i can't even talk to my "Friends".

i thought i would always have my friend of 13 years with me. no matter what.. but since she got a boyfriend i've only hung out with her ONCE in the 6 months they have been dating. and he ended up looking up my phone number in the phonebook to talk to her. and he said that he was worried about her because he thought "my boyfriend just got out of jail and he was over" i know he made that up. because he knows that Jackson is over in Iraq. and so i'm sure that he told her that he didnt want her hanging out with me. just like every other friend i've had. they jsut dump me for their boyfriends...

sorry i just had to vent.. i'm just UGH! not a good year.

Well, those things don't sound too good. Your parents should be checking on you and not just using the cell phone to call you.

One thing you might think of tho is "Am I really there for them when they need me?" Relationships are a two-way street. Make sure you're doing your part as well.

oh i am.. i let them walk all over me. i always put my friends in front of my boyfriends. unlike they do. and i'll just do anything that they need me to do for them. when my ex friends grandpa died, i took her out for a bike ride, and then we went back to my house and we were shooting my brothers paint ball gun at the Ice House. wheneve ri have money i pay for them. even when it was for lunch, my friend never had money. and i'd let her get something and then i wouldnt be able to get anything or i just got something small..

I'm sorry for your bad friends. That is horrible!!! :(